Motherhood!!

Alhamdulillah,completed two years of motherhood! As every other woman who has been a mother says, only in motherhood we experience unconditional love! 

The journey with my daughter is awesome, I really am enjoying every single moment with her. The way she grows up keeps me surprised. She is becoming naughtier and stubborn day by day . I can really understand her "not yet discovered   language" and more than that her body language whether if she wants to potty,or if she is up to some mischief!

She was hospitalised for a week in Kerala as she contracted viral fever,throat infection and cough! I swear my heart broke when they took her in to insert cannula to inject antibiotics n glucose.i went outside and kept my eyes and ears shut so that I won't hear her crying ! Each time they gave her injections I had  the pain in my vein..I felt the sour tastes of the medicines and actually I even felt am admitted! I was so angry with Allah for troubling my baby,kept praying and complaining why is He cruel with my baby! Let me have all the pain and struggle and free my baby that was my prayer!

Whenever the nurses came she called me umma,hugged me tight and cried expecting me to protect her and I sat there holding her tight n kissing and kept on saying sorry I can't help you! That was the worst mental torture I ever had faced. 

As soon as she got discharged I wanted to fly back to Dubai and get her back to normal! I cut short my vacation and flew back. I could not attend my cousin's wedding, couldn't stay at my home,couldn't meet my loved ones couldn't even see my parents to my heart's contend! But still I was happy to be back here.. And was delighted when my baby hugged me tight and kissed and said "love you umma" when we entred our flat! Nothing mattered other than her well being and happiness and still nothing matters other than her! She is my angel,my treasure,my fortune,my happiness,my blessing,my prayer and my smile!! 

Allah bless you my sweetheart live long...

She !!

Hi Folks,

Today happens to be "International Women's Day" ! So Happy Women's day to all the lovely ladies out there! Remember, God made us strong ,bold, beautiful,kind,passionate and yeah a bit sentimental and emotional too ( but that's ok )! God created man first and then woman you know why because God corrected the mistakes he made first time and made the perfect creatures, that's what are ,"women" !!! So be proud to be one and show the world how to respect one when they come across us! I personally believe that we have every right to wear what we like and roam around whenever we wish same as a man does! But don't you think that we are precious so we need to  protect ourselves? So I would prefer not to expose myself and tempt a man who is very weak to suppress his emotions unlike us! What to do ladies we cant help it ! Its a manufacturing defect by God himself so lets take care!!
And to all men out there, relax don't be so upset about there being a day specially for us! Though we are called your better halves we are not considered so always! We have had to take second position ever since we are born!  Be it as a daughter, sister or a wife ! And we have always been taken for granted! So let us have a day to feel ourselves good!!

Imagine, will your world be as beautiful as it is without your mother, who brought you into this beautiful world ,and who made the man you are today! Without your sister ,who fights with you but who will always be missed when not around, and without your wife who is your shadow till death and your daughter whose laughter make your home perfect whose love and care melts you down and admit there is a void when they are married and gone!!
All  I wanted to remind you is that we are special too we also have the right to be as happy are you are and as dignified as you are! Love us,respect us, treasure us! We will always be thankful to you for being a real man!! Thank you. Let's us live,  let us breathe and let us dream ! Together we make this world beautiful!!
Love,
Hash

Rain drops !!

Today morning , I woke up to the rhythm of rain drops falling on to my window and you won't even guess how glad I was , in fact still am! I came out from my blanket and stood by window and could see the rain and wind romancing and people coming to the masjid for morning prayer in rain , may be they were also thanking God for the showers in today's morning prayer ,like I did !

The whole picture made me nostalgic and glad! It reminded me of my beautiful childhood , the beautiful school days and college days( though college days were not as beautiful as school days) ! During Monsoons I would be waking up to cloudy mornings, whole night it was raining and the sky might be taking a break ! It would be so cloudy and dark that we have to switch on lights to locate things and there won't be electricity as its Monsoon and KSEB can't find any better reason for no power!! After getting ready I will go to umma in kitchen where umma will be cooking breakfast and she would be very warm and I used to hug her and say umma is so warm and am feeling cold and she used to reply yeah coz am cooking near the stove and you were sleeping under the blanket ! Then I will have hot sambar and idly and black tea,by then my friend Reshma would have come to join me to tuition centre!

Then we both will walk to the tuition centre ,taking the umbrella which Pappachi folded so neat and clean! By the time we reach the Iruvazhinji bridge the rain would come rushing to hug us!! The rain drops, the wind and the innocence of childhood together make it awesome feeling! The only thing we hated is the vehicles passing by us which might splash the muddy water on us !

Inside the classroom everyone will be wet and feeling cold! We all put our umbrellas as a tent and in lower grades we used to sit inside those umbrellas just as we sit inside a tent! We sit so close that we can feel warm again by the time teacher comes! And by noon we all will be dry and warm , but then there comes lunch break! I used to have lunch from "Tharavadu" along with cousins ! So me , my friend and neighbour Hava will go home to have lunch so we used to get additional rain ! And ofcourse when we go back home as well it's raining !!

So our school days and childhood are always connected to the rains and monsoons!! The smell of uniforms which won't have enough time to be dry and the wet floors of classrooms , the wet school bags and tiffins , everything around and everything under the sun wet , still we all felt very warm and that's the magic of rain in childhood !!

Miss those days !! But Thank God the Dubai rains reminded me of all those beautiful things!!