Friends.....

friends are the best gift god can bless us with....we categorize our friends as best friends,intimate friends,sweet friends,close friends...childhood friends..i have always believed that a friend is someone who understands your past,believes in your future and accepts you today just the way you are...and i have always believed that a best friend is someone who knows you morethan anyone and someone who will be there for you always..who will be there with you always no matter what happens ...
But recently i came across a new friend...who cant be described as my best friend,my intimate friend,or close friend or as my bestest friend either...i think i can describe that friend as my great friend....yeah great friend....my friend just walked in to my life, was with me for sometime...gave me all the pleasure a friend can give in such a short period....taught me manythings...made me understand what i am...and just walked away...leaving such a big change in me...and leaving a never fading mark in my heart....and thats what a great friend is...
My ever dearest great friend,


Thank you soooo much for everything...n i will always cherish your friendship...i always cherish the moment you came in to my life...and i always wish and pray that our friendship lasts forever.....
love,more love and a lot more....

Indiaaaaa---Incredible India !!

Last month, me and my hubby was planning for a vaccation..we really needed a break and was craving to escape the heat of dubai. we first thought of visitting Malasia,Singapore n Thailand. And we went to our travel agents to book our vaccation and get our itenary but unfortunately or fortunately we got the appointment for visa july last week..so we dropped the idea as on aug 1st ramzan will be starting and we need to comeback before that.Then we planned Turkey,again the same problem with the visa. Then I told my hubby,why dont we go to the Incredible India..,our land..where we dont need a visa..and where we have lots to discover..and thus we decided we will explore the splendour,the beauty and the diversity of India.

And we started off to India on 8th july..first we went to Delhi,the capital of India. I was all excited to be there..the new Indira Gandhi International airport is great..really felt happy that I belong to this country.Our driver n car was waiting for us at the airport.I have heard lots of sardar ji jokes..but never experianced one in my life. There was a sardar jee in our flight itself...after we landed in Delhi airport, we were all waiting at the arrivals..then this Sardar ji,who was in que just after me..asked another man in the que,' excuse me Bhai saab..aap aagaye ho ? ya jaa rahe ho?" then that man replied him " ab andhar jaa rahan hoon' then the sardar ji said" ok thank you " and he left the que..i still dont understand why he left the que..and where he went :p.
we landed in Delhi,early morning..so on our way to the hotel, she ( Delhi) was just waking up..still sleepy..and she looked awesome..the driver said it rained last night..and the weather also was awesome after the rains...on our way to hotel itself I got to see the India Gate,I still cant express how i felt when i saw that..

Our hotel was in sundar nagar, a well secured,calm place.we checked in slept till 11..then we called up our driver..and he took us to a famous restraunt. As my hubby is a foody..he had gone through the list of all famous eat outs in Delhi.We had thandoori..the real taste of India. Then we were taken to Rashtrapati Bhavan,Secretariet,India Gate, Raj path,Humayoun's tomb etc..it rained again when we were infront of India Gate..it was awesome to see Delhi, in the rains..The Amar jawan Jyoti ,really awakened my patriotism.For the first time in my life,I wanted to be a politician..when I visitted the Raj Path,Rashtrapati bhavan,Secretariet etc :p..I was really feeling proud to be an Indian..evening the driver left us at the hotel. We just took a shower and called for a cab and again went out..the cabby was a part time guide too..he showed us every bit of Delhi,he could within the time limit..when we went to the Jantar Mantar he commented" Anna idhar baitha thaa' he meant Anna Hazare ! My foody hubby's concern was dinner..so we asked him about Karim's restraunt which was famous..and decided we will have lunch from there next day tonight we will have from another restraunt,which is near our hotel only.The cabby dropped us at Old fort..where we saw the light and sound show of Delhi's history.From our cabby we got an info that India cricketer Kapil Dev is  our neighbour..he is staying near by..and he goes for a morning walk everyday..and will shake hands with everyone..he is very down to earth..etc..I really wanted to get up early and meet him..but was so tired and slept..when Kapil Dev was having his morning walk :).

Second day morning we visitted..The Red Fort,The Qutub Minar,Jama masjid,Safd arjang tomb,Nizam ud din's Shrine,Lodi gardens,Chandni Chowk,Raj Ghat etc.The architecture,the splendour and glory of India..took my breath away.It was raining when we were in Red Fort,chandni chowk etc..we hired a rikshaw..and we were taken to the Old Delhi..in rikshaw..it was an awesome feeling. I noticed a guy..who got a piese of soap from somewhere..taking a shower in the rain...it happens only in India! The lunch at Kareem's restraunt was a different feeling..the food was delicious..it was so crowded..the only difference was the customers were not the kings there..it was the bearers who were the kings :p...it was a great day indeed..we went to Connaught place in the night..had dinner from there..Delhi was celebrating the weekend...so did we..next day we were about to visit Agra..dream in marble...

Oh my dear Lord !!!

Dont ever be so cruel to anyone..in any situation..there should be a limit..you can test ,you can decide,you can punish each of your creations..still they also should have a right..afterall its all as per your wish..whatever they do,whatever they say,however they act, whatever they think even, is pre decided by you..and then you only punish them..i think this is seriously rediculous..its like you are playing with a large number of characters ..and you have made all of them very sensitive as well..

In my case itself..you know me better than anyone..you are my father..,its from you I was created..its as per your wish I was born,brough up..and my character also is designed by you..and you only know what future is awaiting me..and you are giving me somuch pain..its becoming unbearable now..atleast you should give your characters the strength to bear the mental and physical torture you are giving them..that should be really fair enough dear Lord..atleast lets just have a discussion about it..I am sure many others will join my cause..and they will support me..so we are pleading you to think about it..common God, in this year 2011..you should be a bit more flexible..and social..its high time you should have a facebook/twitter/ or a blog atleast..so that we can keep in touch with you !!!

ദൈവമേ നീ എന്തിന്‍ ഇത്ര ക്രൂരനവുന്നു? എന്നെ പരീക്ഷിച് ഇനിയും മതിയായില്ലേ ?ഒരാളെ പരീക്ഷിക്കുന്നതിന്‍ ഒരു പരിധിയുണ്ടാവനം ..എത്ര തവണ തെളിയിക്കണം ഞാന്‍ സ്ട്രോങ്ങ്‌ ആണെന്ന! എനിക്ക് നിന്റെ ലോകത്തെയും നീ സൃഷ്‌ടിച്ച മനുഷ്യരെയും മനസ്സിലാവുന്നില്ല..നീ തന്നെയാണ ഇതിന്റെയെല്ലാം പുറകില്‍ എന്ന എനിക്കറിയാം..നിന്റെ തീരുമാനങ്ങള്‍ക്ക് അനുസരിച്ചന്‍ ഓരോ മനുഷ്യനും പെരുമാറുന്നത് പോലും..പിന്നെ നീ എന്തിന്‍ അതിന്റെ ശിക്ഷയും ഞങ്ങള്ക് തരുന്നു?എന്റെ പ്രിയപ്പെട്ട ദൈവമേ...ദയവു ചെയ്ത് ഒന്ന് നിര്‍ത്..എനിക്ക് ഇനി വയ്യ..ഒട്ടും വയ്യ...

My Mom

Its true that,i have always been closer to my pappa..and i always used to share things with my pappa more than i did with my umma..and i always quarrelled with umma. i have always been a rebel infront of my mother. as a teenager i should have been the worst daughter anyone can think of..i was and am very stubborn..very rude and a very careless type of a daughter..

Umma, i have never told you howmuch i love you,howmuch you mean to me and all..but i have always told pappa about it and i have always let everyone else know howmuch each of them mean to me n howmuch i love each of them...but i have never told you..its because i was so stupid and stubborn that i never wanted to tell you that i love you n you mean somuch to me and most of everything i missed you most in my life! yeah thats the fact behind all my stubborn,rude,careless character...i always missed you and i was always left alone at home..you were busy always..you were a working woman, i can understand your situation now..but then still i think why only me was left alone..my brother n sister had many beautiful moments with you..only i didnt have any...so i was angry,desperate,and sad...and all these emotions came out as a rude,rebelious daughter..
but today i wanna let you know umma, i love you aloooooot...you mean a looooot to me...and i miss you still in my life....and despite of all these fact you have known me very well ...you love me a lot..and you are a great mother indeed...love you umma...miss you...

The worst feeling...

Do you know the worst feeling in life is feeling alone.. Am just alone .

Fed up...:(((((

Am fed up...fed up of many things...fed up of this life as a girl...sometimes...fed up of giving explanations,reasons, and most of everything fed up of being someone else! fed up of breaking up my friendships n relationships which i value...for some misunderstandings..it happens..and it will be the same till my end.. i knw..but still...am fed up..damn it...

y my loved ones cant understand,that i love them,i value them..and i need them....men arent men anymore...animals are far better than humanbeings..!!

Smile,an everlasting smile, a smile can bring you near to me..

Dont ever let me find you gone,cause that would bring a tear to me

This world has lost its glory,lets start a brand new story

Now My Love...

You think that i dont even mean a single word i say...

Its only words and words are all i have to take your heart away..